Taking Time to Say I Love You – 52 Ancestors #242

It’s Father’s Day, and of course, we’re either with our fathers or missing them.

This Father’s Day, I can’t help but think of my step-father, Dean Long.

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This is us together at my wedding. Can you tell that we utterly adored each other, without reservation?

And while this is my favorite picture of him, wearing one of only 2 suits he ever owned, that’s not how I really remember him best.

Dad was full of life and levity.


He started early as a prankster – in his teens, seen here with his never-smiling sister Verma. He had obviously done something to deserve that “disproving glare” and you can bet he was very proud of himself!

He spent his entire life “in trouble” for some kind of escapade or practical joke.


This, this is how I remember Dad, having appropriated an old cast-off coat and created a fashion-statement hat.

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And this, as I was getting my kids ready to go trick or treating. They wore matching masks.

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Hugging my daughter. He would have laid his life down for that child and very nearly did.

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His step-grandchildren had no idea he wasn’t “blood related.” They completely adored him. This baby, my son, tells me that “Pawpaw” still visits him in his dreams.

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Dad in his first suit, complete with wig. No, I have no idea “why.” He never needed a reason to laugh or make you laugh either! He was known to appear, comically, at the most unexpected times, places and in completely out of context ways. Like…in a suit at some “event” he didn’t particularly want to attend, wearing a wig.

He was even late to his own funeral. We suspect he paid of the funeral director in advance for that tone!

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And here’s Dad, wearing MY orange dress, “pregnant,” in 1978. Look at that farmer’s tan!


He played that for all it was worth including waddling and groaning! I had to provide lessons and the requisite pillow! I laughed so hard I was gasping for air and crying. I think we both did!


This grainy out-of-focus picture taken at some long-forgotten fundraiser tells the story. A man of modest means, he was always doing something for someone else even if it did require being pregnant. Believe me, lots of people paid to see that!

Dad was a farmer but raised orphan animals. He rescued creatures with no hope, bringing them home to me and Mom.

Dad chose me as his daughter, telling me that when he married my mother, he “got his baby girl back.” Linda would have been about my age and died 2 days after Christmas in 1959. He never stopped grieving her death.

His first wife, Linda’s mother, died 9 years later. He never stopped grieving Martha either, always visiting and cleaning their graves on Memorial Day. We never accompanied him. It was a trip he needed to make alone.

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Here Dad is taking his daily 20 minute after-lunch nap with Frosty, his constant companion, a 3-legged cat that broke her back as a kitten in the barn. He thought there was no saving Frosty, but she outlived him. Love works miracles sometimes.

They are together now.

Dad was quite the practical jokester, participating in Rendezvous’ and Encampments throughout Indiana.


Schoolchildren attended on field trips and he educated them about pioneers and using everything at your disposal, wasting nothing. You could say he was an early recycler. It wasn’t “fashionable” then, but born of lifelong necessity. It was just the way life had always been on the farm.


Of course, there was always some funny tall tale to be told – like the yarn about the bull with the one red eye. I shudder to think. Those kids probably still have nightmares!

I made Dad’s Rendezvous clothes by hand in true pioneer style.

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He carved buttons and fasteners out of bone and wood. We made such a good team. After his death, I mounted a few in a frame so they wouldn’t get lost. I can still see him intently working with his gnarled old hands.


The stories around the campfire as the “pioneer” mountainmen gathered in the evenings were less family friendly, but quite humorous, nonetheless.

One time his buddies even hung him, after a mock trial, for molesting a groundhog – all in good fun. (No groundhogs were actually molested.)

He was, of course, rescued at the last minute. I think mother and I coincidentally happened to arrive, in costume, and leapt into action just in time to save him from sure and certain death. Complete with righteous indignation of course. Mother playing the “Well, I never…what have you done now???” role with me sneaking in with a hatchet hidden under my skirt in the nick of time to spontaneously chop the gallows rope from around his neck, facilitating his escape!

Those were the days.

Dad loved the encampments which afforded opportunities to work with his hands, somewhat raucous camaraderie and to connect with and educate young people.

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I cross-stitched Dad a “banner” with the location of each of the encampments he frequented for him to hang and display at his campsite, but he hung it on the door at home instead. Mom said he was afraid it would be damaged or stained, although I viewed that as “seasoning.” I wanted him to use it, but I was secretly pleased that he loved it so much. It still hangs in my house now, 25 years after his passing.

Dad was too ill to “camp” the last summer before he passed away on Labor Day weekend, 1994. The following summer, the “rendezvous farewell ritual” took place.

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Dad’s campsite was set up by his friends just like always, but was of course vacant. On Saturday evening, a fire was built in his fire pit, and everyone gathered round, telling stories and regaling tales about Dad, whose nickname was “Hoot” – because he was.

I absolutely had to attend, traveling from out of state, but mother just couldn’t. The grief was still too raw. His son didn’t bother.

Each person took turns telling stories that evening.

I laughed. I cried. A lot. Sometimes at the same time. Is that even possible?

I said, in a quiet moment, as the firelight flickered and the wood crackled, that I simply could not have had a better father if I had been his own blood.

The comfortable silence continued with everyone lost in their own thoughts when finally one of his buddies said, softly, barely audibly, “We had no idea he wasn’t your father. We knew that one of his two children was a step-child, but we thought you were his daughter. You’re the one who always came with him and made his things.”

You know why they thought that? Because I am, in my heart, and in his too.

I loved that man to depths I still can’t fathom. The grief is still new and palpable and raw, even 25 years later – especially on “those days,” like Father’s Day, his birthday, Christmas, and the anniversary of his death.

Also on days when I see cornfields, barns, cows, pigs, weeds, dandelions, snow, cats, dogs, tractors or flowers, especially his ferns growing in my garden, waist high this year.

Yes, pretty much everyday.


I’ve passed on some of the ferns and flowers from Dad’s garden, having passed through two of mine, to those grandchildren, now adults. His ferns, joyful reminders of carefree childhood summers spent on the farm.

I am eternally, sorrowfully, grateful.

I wish I had told him more often and could tell him, in person, just one more time. It didn’t seem necessary. I thought I had forever. I didn’t.

All I can do now is visit his grave.

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Thank you, Dad.

I love you.



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28 thoughts on “Taking Time to Say I Love You – 52 Ancestors #242

  1. Roberta, you even touched my life. I believe, the second picture was taken was taken at Monument Circle in Indianapolis. I am an Indy native and it brought back memories for me.

    Thanks for your posts,

  2. A beautiful tribute to a wonderful Dad. I feel like I know him from your memories. You were blessed to call him “Dad” ❤️

  3. Oh Roberta –

    Once again:, from your heart, you share a piece of your personal life’s treasured family stories.

    My only Grandfather, was in fact, the second husband of my Great Grandmother. When as a young girl growing up, he was always Granpa Hitchcock. He loved us, as if we were his own Great Grandchildren. My Great Grandmother, had already passed before I was born. Granpa Hitchcock was my connection to Great Granma Sara Florence.

    In my early teens, I started doing Genealogy. To my surprise, I learned that Granpa Hitchcock was not my Granpa by blood, but rather by the “shared Love between us.”

    Being an adopted Mother, some babies grow in our Hearts, others grow under it. And so it is with step Parents, and Grandparents. True love has no bounds or ties of blood. Just unconditional love, the same as what it is, had there been a blood connection.

    Happy Father’s Day to all Father’s here with us, or in Heaven above, Each One always kept closely in our hearts.

    Ally Mitchell Woods

  4. I know you miss him very much–you’ve written a great tribute, and the wonderful photos help to tell the story–that he was a loving husband, father and grandfather, and such a joy!

  5. Well said Roberta. As in all of your heartfelt writings I think you speak for many of us with your beautiful words and remarkable insights and feelings. Words that we would write to express those feelings of love and sorrow and thankfulness given your remarkable ability. Thanks……

  6. What a beautiful heartfelt story. A wonderful tribute to an extraordinary man, your Dad. Thank you for sharing Roberta.

  7. Such an eloquent Father’s Day tribute for your Dad, Roberta. The photos really do show the depth of your mutual admiration and love for each other. I had to stop reading to let the tears fall away, when you described the Rendezvous Farewell ritual. Sounds like he was both loving, and much loved.

    Your cousin, Diane Cole
    via Nicholas Speak- Samuel Patton- Joseph Allen- Mitchell Marion- Joseph Conley- and Lois Freda Speak Cole.

  8. Fun dads never die because they live in our hearts. I also was blessed with a dad who never ceased to amaze us. Just remembering him brings a smile to my face. Thanks for sharing. I sincerely enjoyed your story.

  9. What a wonderful tribute to your Dad. We are raising my daughter’s son, a step grandchild to my husband but they love each other as much as any “by blood” relations.

  10. If you read all the comments to your posts you gotta be a looney tunes as your dad. And he sounds like a prize — just like mine. Gosh, I miss him! Thanks for the laugh and the cry. No need to tell him you love him. He knows. I hope I get to meet him some day.

  11. What an amazing “Dad” and a beautiful tribute to a man who obviously idolized you. Loved this entry and the photo story of your father-of-the-heart, Dean Long.

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